No amount of money can buy you happiness. The most it can do is make life a little or a lot more luxurious, or whatever term you want to give it. The meaningful stuff can’t be found in your size nor to your taste.
Some years the presents we all receive, may be large in numbers, but turn out to be lacking in content and purpose. Other years it is the thought behind the the smallest gift, that sends tears to your eyes. Some presents are not meant to please you, but impress others. Some are mere formalities, bought out of obligation. Yet others come from a need to easy a guilty conscience. Some are complete mistakes.
I have received my share of gifts at Christmas and at other occasions, fur and fancy jewelry they never meant that much to me( fortunately, cause I do not possess them anymore) but the greatest gift I received was my freedom. I truly believe, it was not meant to be given like this, it was supposed to crush me and belittle me further and before it became reality, I saw it as an exile. But it turned out to be a step into a sort of rebirth, a new beginning and unburdening sigh of relief.
So, I no longer possess a house(wasn’t mine in the first place), nor a car or a piece of furniture collected for 26 years, nor the watches and ornaments on throat, ears, wrists or fingers but I have gained something much more valuable. My future, however uncertain lies in front, for me to take charge of and shape. My past, a collection of pleasant and very unpleasant pictures, is something that I can not change and frankly, do not wish to change, which one would be the one responsible to changed its course?
Freedom means free of a lot of things, like fear, wariness, blame, insults, false accusations and jealousy which bordered on the sick…free to make decisions and mistakes, free to treasure the days that remain, free to raise my boys into men who will treat their women as respected equals and to teach them that responsibility is not something we distribute left and right when things go wrong.
Free to be whatever…
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